someone asked me:

"hey, how's everything going these days? you have nothing new here, so is that supposed to mean that everything is ok for you?"

 

seems like i am always complaining here..       

^@^   i shouldn't have~~ hoho~~

 

the mid-term exam was done. oh, I was so scared of it before that day. to be honest, I have paid very little attention to my stusy these days. it's a shame. always doing this, doing that, all kinds of stuff. maybe that "omplicated period of time“ has come already. many decisions to make, many yeses or nos to choose. complicated, just as you said long time ago. I can only say that I am such a lucky dog that my scores of the test is not that bad, not good enough though. but I know that is kind of price I have to pay for the consequences of my own choices. I have totally accepted it. and I am grateful.

 

is there a kind of so-called Adolescence Syndrome? maybe there is, for I seem to be suffering from it. the last minute something or someone was so beautiful to me, but the next they are no more disgusting. "maybe I am a freak.” all right, be a freak. you don't have to be tolerant, cuz I won't either.

 

now i firmly believe in "the first impression counts a lot". so much, I have to say. I remember the first day we met. i was not that sure whether I hated you, but I knew it clearly that I didn't like you that much. and maybe that's the source, the very beginning of all that stuff.

I've been thinking about this for a while. I also wonder why. while I cannot figure out clearly. ironically, I should have liked you, which the others may take for granted.

stupid. more stupid.

 

and sorry to someone, who care me so much.

sorry for nothing I can do to pay off.

 

thank god I have enough good friends, both near and not that near me. I am not alone, and I am quite safe, though sometimes the sense of lacking in safety takes full control of me. I should have been more confident about myself, my friends, and the world. those happy moments we have spent together have proved that. what more could i ask for? I have you guys. that means the world to me.

 

forget all those chiidish words above. I am happy, and WE will be more HAPPIER^_^

When I was depressed and really wanted to talk, I thought of nobody but you, and then I called you, and then I felt much better.

 

But I'm quite confused that why I called you, not anybody else? Who are you? I was supposed to turn to someone nearer to me.

 

Something is destined to be only told to somebody, regardless of who the Somebody really are.

 

At least I can make sure that I'm very lucky to have you there, not near, yet not far.

Thanks again.

 

 

 

"I miss you, and I've been missing you for a while." I wanna say it out, just as Rufus did.

You say you wanna meet me there. So do I.

Fine. I promise you. I will be there, asap.

Cannot wait~~ But it takes time, you know.

So, let's wait for that day, that moment. It won't be long.

I love you.

Mess. Totally messed up. Ironically I have been doing something all the time while I actually seem to be doing nothing. That loss of direction has come back to me again while it seems quite clear in my mind. I wanna figure something out. I wanna turn to someone for help. But just don't know why it is kind of difficult.

Recently many interesting things have happened to many people around me.

"The world is more amazing than we imagine."

I totally agree.

And I am very very happy to be one of the audience.

Let's enjoy the SHOW together.

It's Sherry's Syndrome. I should name it.

How things can be totally different just in a second?

I am confused.

Something wrong with me? Or those THINGS are guilty?

Forget it. It's just a phase.

 

But sometimes I really think that I am such a dork.. always worry about something that never deserves my attention. And recently I have had a great time travelling to Hangzhou, Suzhou with friends.. and next will be Yangzhou, maybe next weekend. What else should I ask for? I have been given so much. I have been lucky enough. I shall be grateful.

 

All right.

Syndrome?

Bye~